I have been contemplating sharing these pictures to you but I must admit I am not ready to post them. My daughter is really the reason I am getting up the courage to show you. I see a difference but I also see a year of time that I should have invested more for better results. Allen is so proud but he is my husband and I figure what else can he say. He also commented he didn’t realize I had gotten that big. I showed him your email and he said I should send it. I still wasn’t convinced. So being funny I called Ashlee in who just turned 7. I asked if she saw a difference in the pictures and she quickly pointed to the one on the left and said yeah this one is fat and that one is skinny. I want to write a testimonial but I have to get my head in the game and start focusing on the accomplishments and stop focusing so much on what I see bad in the recent pictures. I don’t expect you to understand this mental thing since I am crazy. I am not even sure if you are going to be pleased.
So I am sending the pictures but please give me time if you are planning on using them and I will get my head on straight and give a testimonial. The words right now are just not positive.
July 7, 2012
Thanks Dave. Thanks for your persistence. I am looking forward to getting thru the 180’s. I only hope I can start bringing what is necessary in our workouts. I am listening to you. I hate frustrating you.
You will probably never know how much it has meant that I have never felt you have given up on me. I am changing. Slowly for sure. Even coming to your show was a big step for me. I was so nervous. I don’t do well in new surroundings. I just knew in my heart I didn’t belong there. I kept thinking what business does a fat girl belong at this show. That is why I was hoping to make the night show. Since, family and all would be there; I thought I would blend in better. I am really trying to do away with these insecurities and crazy fears. So I came; I enjoyed and I survived. So, the scale defiantly isn’t the only tool for measurement. I do enjoy seeing it move in the right direction.